1. Today went out with Haiyee, Anna & Eunice .. the same old same old =) They are the bestest poeple u can go out with .. ever so on so gung-ho we went kboxing today again ... haha this time Haiyee came late bcoz she tot was 1.30 instead of 10.30 hahaha .. spent $20 today ..actually quite little le compared to other time go kboxing in the noon
2. Now the most important thing to me is .... FREEDOM ... Sweet freedom how much i want it so badly ... however parents being parents esp. my mother won't allow me to have the taste of it ... sobxsobx hope my 21 come soon ...
3. I dun wan to go back to school NEVER ... sigh i can't believe my holiday is over soon in less than a week ... i haven't enjoy it to the fullest and after this its back to tests & exams .... im afraid to go on anymore i dun find any motivation ... ever since sec2 i lost my motivation ... all of it ... U know lack of motivation is one thing .... but those teachers who give up hope on me is another thing ... all of them other than Mrs Raj, Cai Lao Shi & Ms Leow actually are looking down on us ... is there such thing as miracle .... ya when my L1R5 get 6 .. this is when miracle happens... and pigs fly
4. I wish I am more braver and courageous ...
5. Im depressed ... and death don't scare me anymore ... im more happy to embraced it now ... i just want to sleep for a long long time without thinking abt homework , exams and Os ... just plain sleeping ... and never wake up

1. Sorry for the late update ... these few days i have been died ... just tired from the world cup *yawns*
2. Hmm... which team would i support for the world cup ? I would have to say its Argentina ... y?
   Well.. i honestly dunno ... its just an instinct ... if i have to give an answer ... its gonna be very "air-head" Because Argentina has very nice jersey and pale blue and white matches each other really nice and it starts with an "A" ...
   ......
   ......
   Yep.. really bimbo answer
3. The SI fever is on me right now... who i support the most???
   Being a girl its normal to vote for a guy rite...I would vote for either Jonathan or Paul...
   but being a feminist.. I would say Jasmine .. its not fair ... the girls have better chance of winning than the guy .. i mean did u watch this week guys' piano show... i wasn't quite sastisfied by the performance .. and yes i would have to agreed with Ken's comment on them.. It is obvious that the gals ROCK! Why do they separate the girls and the guys... juz go rojak ... and probably there wuld have been a huge difference in terms of singing ...
   Okay.. i know i m being very feminist here...but so far all those talents shows winners are all the guys ... wat happen to the gals? Its either
   * the guys aren't so crazy abt them unless its Fiona Xie or Pamela Anderson up there
   * gals really would die for their male hearthrobs literally
   * S'pore is being a male totalitarian country...
   Let the women ROAR not SCREAM !!
4. U know abt a year ago ... Project Superstar's winner was Kelvin Tan(hahaha) I was quite mad at the result ... but now channel 5 decide to air a show on those ppl against all odds and Kelvin was one of them... I felt sympathetic for him ... I mean being visually handicapped at such tender age has caused him great diff. shouldn't the almighty god be kinder to him now... and indeed he has ... by letting his dreams come true and I think he does deserve to win ... my soft-heartedness is getting to me
5. I love one particular commercial on channel 5 the one with Peugeot car in it it goes something like this...
   Imagine a world where men would be tailor-made
   where heels won't hurt
   where husbands give birth
   and diamonds grow on trees
   and every car would be like this <-- ( this is unnecessary)
   I like commercial like this that challenge ur imagination to think the unthinkable.. wat a nice world it would be ... I also like the Cabury Chocolate commercial too if chocolate don't make me fat !! Wouldn't it be nice?
6. Holiday is boring and plain but such simple pleasures in life leave you wanting more...
7. U know the channel 8 drama show at 9pm ... the CID show with washboard abs hunks ... i think the opening song for the show isn't quite right... too slow for the fast action show
8. I want many things... I want MP4, a swatch watch, a pair of nike sportshoes and The Body Shop " Cassis Rose" body mists ... yeah i want many luxury items in life... aren't i a bad girl?
9. Recently i began to go to the library to borrow storybooks >_< .. and when I go to the fiction section .. I saw this guy he was picking those love stories books ... yep.. i stared at him (that's pretty rude) and I didn't know such person exists in S'pore haha pretty bizzare =)
10. We have a class forum set up by Pris ... so nice of her ... but i dun think i would go there ... i need to take my time off work esp. homework but its nice of her to upload those notes for us there ...

How many disappointments can one take and still be alive till now?
When the pain stills hurts in the heart and no one can see
Till Hope came and ease the pain slowly by setting u to look forward to somethings
Self-deception maybe ... but it will go away gradually ...
when things turn out good

Im just rambling some stupid stuff lah ... haha

I believe that the best has yet to come... for you for me and for everybody
---- hopeless dreamer herself

1. Today actually want to pon lower half day but after yesterday nite's conference i have decided to go the upper half day ... after pon-ing ermm.. I find out that i didn't lose out much la...pls its Mr Tan he repeats watever is from the damn textbook and didn't tell us watever that's not in the book so actually i have wasted my whole sec4 period with him... ahh i juz have to depend on my redspot SS guide book for a good grade
2. I juz can't stand myself being a coward... why can't i be more brave... i think bcoz maybe that damn person is more smarter, more prettier and have more "gangs" than me ... and i have wise friends to tell me stay clam than to be rash and impulsive like somebody... yes indeed " still water runs deep" but doesn't becoz of this i will be quiet watever i see is unjust... I will still roar back and probably give it a big bite and make sure u dun see the daylight out of it.... so don't overdo it
3. Today is the last day of june SSP ... i have told myself to relax and play more in this june holiday coz it would be my last break .. i know im a big slacker la so i would have to buck up to go to AJC .. i want to go there by my own capabilty coz i dun wan ppl to say things abt me and maybe i won't go AJC maybe other JC that really depends alot on other factors .. but in order to get to any JCs i have to work hard and get really well for my L1R5
4. Today went out and play .. at first i met up with anna and went to the arcade and play then eunice came next then jordan and haiyee ( im suprised la) ! Then CJ and YanKit came and pissed me off (especially the latter) ... argh,,, for my next mth resolution is anger mangement... i let my emotions control me too easily and then our honoured guest Ivy Tan came at 4-ish when we decided to meet at 12.30pm ..yes fashionably late nvm we still love her !! Ya we have fun today.. we went arcad-ing , window shopping , getting free water from carrefour and take neoprints !! Fun nevertheless !
5. I feel bad for my Jiayan becoz she is my best fren from sec 1 till now... actually shld spend more time with her ... haiz but she dun like kbox... so sad ... will call her up often to spend more quality time together.. and take more neoprints !! This maybe our last year together le... wanna treasure her before we got separated =)
6. Haha we had a very interesting conversation juz now while eating ice-cream ....
   dunno who: i tot u going for the Direct School Admission thingy...
   Ivy: No lah , she say she want to cast a bigger net , have more choices..
   Haiyee looks at me then with a "oh-i-know-its-for-him" expression and say: No lah..she want to see that person go where...
   Me: Ermm... part of it.. but not the main point
   Anna: Aiya.. its scared that someone go same JC as her gf
   Me: BINGO!
7. I think i have to go revise on my e-maths coz i nv listen in class and took painfully long time to rotate my pictures in the photobucket ... 90degree clockwise, 180degree clockwise, 270clockwise...ehh funny how come dun have 360degree clockwise?........
   STUPID! It would be the same as the original postion.... why dun they say rotate vertically or horizontally... Aiya as long got the words horizontally or vertically i understand liao still use numbers...
8. Mrs Raj says that if we score distinction for english then she treat us Ben's & Jerry's Im gaga over B&J ice-cream !! haha ut a distinction for my english its like taking a moon from the sky... i have nv gotten an A1 for my english before.. although one time i got A2 for my english common test.. tat's the highest i can hit... aiya... why Mrs Raj be my form teacher... maybe she say who can get 10 points and below for L1R5 will get a treat ... maybe tat will be a better motivation than getting distinction for my english
9. Im worried for him.. bcoz i didn't see him online and in school... he was always absent... for i decided to SMS a casual question to check if he's still alive , at 20.16 today and he replied at 20.26... =)))) although he nv say how come he didn't come or not online ... but a curt reply will be enuff for me !!!
10. Decide to upload some nice photos !!
    

<---- Nice photo of me and Jiayan

<--- Eunice's Big Eyes

<--- Eunice & Ivy at Paradiz's centre K-box !

Tmr i'll try to post some funny photos here ! ta-ta

1. I think i got alittle mental... i have 2 sides... one side is more towards the helpful side... the other is more hateful ... recently because of a certain event i think the hateful side take control ... and whoever i targetted i won't give up until &^%* really suffers .. i dunno why i have this mindset that enjoy to see *(&*( suffers ... yes i think im mentally sick... but im remorseful when ppl thinks its too far ... I DUNNO WHY !!!
2. I now know why i can live 6 mths without talking to him bcoz everyday i can see him ... but this june supplementary is hell.... firstly teachers take the opportunity to give more and more tests ... next teachers go super super fast to finish the whole syllabus ... lit lesson was boring and i broke my this year record ... i boldly fell asleep for 1 hr ( clap clap ) in front of Ms Ow ....
3. I hate tuition... especially with Mandy in it... she keeps on asking questions and answering her own questions.... -.- And it goes blah blah blah BLAH BLAH and she keeps telling me she pon her lessons becoz she find it sianz....
4. I cannot pon my friday becoz ... my mum won't allow it and therefore I cannot go join u guys ... maybe reccess poning... i know im bad but i can't stand 4hrs of Mr Tan ... pls let me off .... my dear conscious
5. I cannot concentrate on my work anymore... becoz got temptations... my computer and PS2 are calling out to me... i can only stand when at tuition definitely not in school...
6. Today we have an addition to Nicholas' victims ... its Spiky Chong Mao Mao the furry disgusting caterpillar .. the real Mao Mao Chong not the grubby green hairless one..this one is real hairy and eeewww.... nvm after a few days the caterpillar will die b4 it turns into a butterfly =))) yes im a sadist for insect
7. I am such a deep sleeper now... and won't wake up till 7.30 am ... yeshh.. such a pig
8. I find that all teachers are beginning to lose faith in 4E5... they were like so sianz to teach us .. doesn't matter anyway .. we dun need them to teach us anyway.... there is such things as study groups and smart alecs for us
9. A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you lose your heartaches

Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling thru

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

The dream that you wish will come true

from: the real dreamer herself ( the song is from cinderella )

I love disney princesses especially Belle .. she is so kind and smart and beautiful and forgiving ... if not how would she like a beast who is actually a prince in the end .... and she is not a damsel in distress ... although its okay to be one but it is juz sianz la ... everytime the girl needs handsome prince to save her .. not she save handsome prince so this is a breakthrough in fairy tales ba

Which legendary flower are you?(LONG results and great pics!)

LEONA:Leonas are small, six-petalled dark-red flowers with a lovely fragrance. Their petals are pointed like a jasmine's and they are found only in the countryside.STAND FOR: Passion and Desire.LEGEND: It is said that their was once a princess, Kaiya, who wanted to live a normal life and greatly disliked being confined within the walls of her castle. There are stories of her sometimes sneaking out at night to be in a secret place in the meadows which only she knew of. When it was time for her to be married, her father (the king) found her a royal groom, but she did not wish to be bound to another royal life and poisoned herself to death. When she was buried, Leonas grew around her grave, symbolizing her eternal desire for freedom.YOU ARE: a very passionate person. You believe in your dreams and in yourself. If you do something, you give it your best and people respect you greatly for that!
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1. Juz did a rainbow quiz and found out im a violet person !! I love violet !! Although its an international gay colour but im not a gay !! Im a perfectly normal little girl who loves a certain someone !!

(Personality) What Color of the Rainbow Do YOU Represent? (With Awesome Anime Pix)

Violet: You represent the color Violet! A happy bubbly person, you have a great love for everyone. It takes a lot to get you down, and it isn't uncommon for you to cheer up a down friend. Who better to make someone smile than someone with a heart full of love? You have no problem talking about your feelings, which is actually a very healthy habit. Although you sometimes come off as a little naive, you are very aware that there is evil in the world. You just choose to put a happy spin on things. Keep spreading the love! ^-^
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1. I luv Ben & Jerry's ice cream especially cherry garcia so sweet and fruity !!! Haagen Daaz is like so over now...
2. I want a sweet smelling perfume... juz spotted it in The Body Shop ... cassis rose smells so sweet and bubbly like me haha
3. Tomorrow will be another boring day for us again... why can't we have free period like other classes... even the 4N can have it... so wat's wrong with us? I hate the teacher-in-charge of this thing.
4. When in infatuation ... the feeling is definitely bitter-sweet like dark chocolate... u can't help feeling the pain when that certain someone doesn't notice u... and u will smile whole day if that someone talks to u ... I can live 6 months without talking or messaging him but still admire him ... i think the feeling is dying soon... so great i can focus on my Os now ( if that damn bus stop distracting me) certain smth on certain bus will remind me of him
   
5. You're suffering from Major Depressive Disorder [Unipolar].Depressive disorders can be insidious and you can be in the grip of the beast before you realise it. Depressives tend to see life through a negative filter. It doesn't matter what happens to them, they know that something will go wrong and they aren't surprised when it does. Depression can also really affect your judgement and ability to make decisions, on top of that it often interferes with your sleeping patterns and your ability to apply yourself to any work that needs to be done.Low self esteem is usually tied into this disorder as well as suicidal urges. If you're feeling suicidal, please ring a crisis service.Usually the best way to be rid of depression is a mixture of antidepressant medication and counselling. Studies show that medication or counselling alone is not as effective as both of these together.

haha me major depression ... lol ... although somtimes i have suicidal tots but i won't go far to kill myself by jumping off flats... running across the road to get bang by cars ... slicing my wrists... those above are too painful for me... but i think if there is those sleeping pills around me ... i think i would have died by now... seriously... Thankfully i have wonderful frens around me and my hopes and dreams to achieve ... so im currently not suicidal ... =))

Life is wonderful and i got 86 for this speech !

1. I can't stand those ppl who drown themselves in self-pity..one example will be Cai Lao Shi...she keeps complaining that she has many work to do and short deadlines...no break ..very pressurising...blah blah blah.... Why dun she give herself a break and give us a BREAK from hearing all these.... Anyway the target is not her..she is only an example...
   Self-pitying should be a sin...why dun these ppl have some dignity and let ppl respect them...I dun understand...if im stressed up..i juz give myself a break...no need to self pity ...a quick solution is self-pamper
2. In life, people will judge from their 1st impression... its sad but true becoz we need to have an idea wat this person is like before we treat them ... but when u know that person a little bit better sometimes u will be surprised ... but nevertheless 1st impression is still important but it is a wrong impression most the the times...
3. Hmm...Mrs See juz tot us probabilty.... I m going to name one certain event .... Not everyone will like u.. so deal with it..probably juz saw one scene on thur outside sch...the sec one gals are really really gullible...when they heard a certain somebody dun like them they were like "whoever dun like me is a bitch/bastard...its their lost for not knowing me..." Wats up with the diva attitude man...Hmmm...so far i dunno who dun like me...but im sure that there are afew of them out there... if u know can tell me... so i will stay clear them...
4. Although i hate the idea of being two-faced person...but it is more easier to be one... but honestly i dun really 100% hate a certain person...(other than one idiot who gets the bloody message that i want him out of my life) because some ppl are juz ppl who love to hate type... (not hate la..maybe dislike) but they are still neutral sometimes la ... I like Haiyee for being a frank person !!! She says wat she like and i like her for being tat !!
5. Juz watch X-men in J8 and i saw CY & Leo there watching the S'pore idol thingy...X-men3 was stupendous !!!

that's all ... although i nv reach ten points ... but i would like to try this sort of assignment

10 years ago i was : in kindergarten hating my kindergarten teacher... becoz she is so OLD and FIERCE ... i wonder why they hired such person ... maybe its the easiest job ...

5 years ago i was : playing happily with my primary school friends..probably the best year of my pri sch years

1 year ago i was: not paying any attention to my work... enjoying our free "lit." period

5 snacks i enjoy : chips, cherries, ice-cream , pizza , sweet & spicy stuff

5 songs i know all the words :

zhu wo sheng ri kuai le by Landy

bu xiang zhang da by S.H.E

simple & clean by hikaru utada

eyes on me by faya wong

of course my fav.

Majula Singapura!

5 things i would do with 100m :

Go slim down like Olinda

Buy many bags

Buy many watches

Buy my own private jet

save the rest 20m

and donate 20m to charity =)

(if possible buy a golden tap becoz its like peanuts to me)

5 places i would run to

Tokyo, Japan

Anywhere in Australia

Paris

Greece

London

5 things i never wear

super mini skirt

tube top

full dress( its different thing for CO)

bikini

super high heels( which make u fall even when u are standing still)

5 favourite tv shows

local idol shows

American Next Top 10 models

Stairways To Heaven

MTV : Meimei pei ni kan MTV

of course my fav.

DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES

5 biggest joys :

Be in 4E5

Having an ipod mini

Going to theme park

Going to kbox

Sleeping Zzz..

5 fav. toys :

PS 2

my heart cushion

my Hello Kitties from Mac

maybe a Barbie doll?

and my GBA

1. I want to go chalet this june with my friends... I want it to be a class thing...but most likely not happening becoz our class still quite scattered...but nevertheless i want to have a class chalet in this june...maybe its our class last big break before we go full throttle for the Os and i really want to go with our class coz i like this class alot
2. After Os, I want to go overseas travel with my friends coz i like the idea of being so grownup and travel with friends...that would be fun coz i always complain not having more time spent with them...Of course this can only happen if my mum allow la...which is most likely not becoz i still cannot choose wat path i want to continue at the age of 17...
3. I am not a violent person if u dun trigger my berserk mode...actually im a timid person..i can't stand violent movies or bloody scenes...so dun ever push the red button on me coz i dun like to hit ppl
4. I hate ppl who always for no reasons ka jiao other ppl...they are the ones that wasted your sixty seconds( or more) of happiness away
5. Is singing everything? After watching Singapore Idol...some very kua zhang as if singing is their only sole living purpose on this planet..i know im very insensitive here but if singing is a passion .. it doesn't matter if u make it big too...as long u love singing that's all it matters...unless u want $$ and fame...
6. Im glad tat Paul and John get into the top 12.. I mean its quite obvious tat who are the better ones... and i think both of them can make it to the finals coz they sing well and have a strong impression on the audience..but im never going to watse my money and vote because i will get nth out of this unless the contestant is my friend...
7. Ms Ong keeps on scolding us...i know she meant well but sometimes its too much la..i really appreciated her efforts but hell i need some break from chem too..nevertheless i know Ms Ong rocks and Mrs Raj is THE BEST teacher ever!!!
8. I change alot from lower sec to upper sec, good and bad , lower sec damn quiet but guai kia always do hw...upper sec always tok and tok but nv do hw but i prefer the now me...but still miss the hardworking part of me...
9. Haha..till now those who are almost stuck with me for 4 yrs are Jiayan , Hai Yee , Hannah , CY , LC & Jac...and saw some changes in them too...somehow i think they like 4E5 also and seems more united...
10. If i have a special power I wish i can fly...i found out that i could not stay at home all the times and i love to travel so if i can fly i dun need to buy air ticket dun even need to face traffic jams...so nice sia....WOO tmr i go watch X-men3 with my bro...although he seems unwilling...nvm la after he watch finish he won't regret one...haha ..i heard its a SUPER NICE MOVIE !!!